April 25, 2022 - NO MORE TITTY TWISTS

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Seems like Groundhog Day. Wake up, get kids ready for school, get them to bus and get in car to hospital. Didn’t I JUST do this 2 weeks ago? Sure did. This time, I’ll be walking out lopsided, missing my right nipple. No more titty twisting me, at least on the right side, for now. I’ve heard you get them tattooed on after?!?! Stay tuned for that! 

I’m getting texts in the morning, wishing me well, and honestly, I’m over it. Get whatever cancer or threat of cancer out of me. A friend texting me good luck, I respond with, “They can take my nipple, but they’ll never take my FREEDOM” and coupled that with the William Wallace GIF from Braveheart. Why not. 

I’m not sure who watched Mad Men, but Brian and I did. One of the last seasons a crazy copywriter falls in love with his boss. To show how much he loves her, he cuts off his nipple and puts it in a box for her. I offered that to Brian this morning. He laughed, as did I. Only us. 
This is him (don't recall name) handing Peggy his nipple. Quite the gesture.


Met with both Doctors before the procedure to discuss what will happen. They brought me to the same operating set as before. Same actors hitting their marks. Surgery was only about an hour this time. I did wake up with my wound vac (AKA my ducks) gone, however I still have these annoying tubes. 

Then I look down, I can see my left breast for the first time. WOAH. Is this mine? It looks like you deflated part of it, then stepped on it. I’m reassured this is normal, because they took my entire breast last time and added the expander. An expander is basically an deflated balloon that I (well the plastic surgeon) inflates with saline gradually until I reach my desired size. OK. Brian told me not to look at it, because to be honest, it’s devasting and ugly. I have to be positive though. My plastic surgeon has also reminded me multiple times. Now is the time to get the cancer, then I’ll make you pretty. He’s kinda hippyish, and I like him. It’s still a little jarring to see it. My right breast is bandaged still, I mean there is a nipple in a box somewhere. Nipple in a box… That has got to be an upcoming SNL skit. 

It's more painful this time around. I think because I didn’t have a pain blocker and I really feel that tight wound vac, as annoying as it was, kept everything tight and protected. So no wine.

 

Comments

  1. Gehrig PetersonApril 26, 2022 at 10:27 PM

    We will have whatever wine you desire when you are ready!! Xoxo

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  2. AnonymousApril 27, 2022 at 5:25 AM

    Your courage, yet humor is remarkable. So strong! ❤️

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  3. AnonymousApril 27, 2022 at 3:09 PM

    I had stage 1 twice. 1996 and 2016
    Had two lumpectomies on the same breast. Had radiation the first time. I was 51 then 71. Keep the positive attitude and tamoxifen and Letrozole were the drugs I had…each for five years. My best wishes to you! ❤️❤️

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